The Little Hater
This is a oldie, but oh-so-relevant goodie. Jay Smooth — one of my favorite video bloggers and founder of WBAI’s Underground Railroad, the longest running hip hop show in New York — breaks down the Little Hater.
The Little Hater is the voice of doubt in your head and there’s something about his parsing the logic of the Little Hater that weakens it for me and gives me an out from the hater spiral.
Since I moved to California, I haven’t blogged at all and my work on my dissertation has fallen off a bit. Needless to say, my Little Hater was in overdrive. Here it is in a nutshell:
- It tells me that my ideas aren’t worth anything.
- That all praise received in the past was a product of tricking said praisers into thinking I was more talented than I am. (Never mind that pulling off that kind of trickery would make me a witch in possession of magical powers that should enable me to finish my dissertation. #AccioDissertation!)
- And lastly, My Little Hater is a revisionist mofo. It goes back to sparks of insight and tells me “that was a dumb idea, what were you thinking?” I literally have to write notes to myself that say, “This is still a good idea, stick with it” just to shut my Little Hater up.
So I’m taking a stand with my Little Hater and saying, “Not today.” How about you? What’s your little hater like?
Note: If you like this video, Jay Smooth started posting Ill Doctrine again with regularity for AnimalNewYork.com.